wondering about the suposed "superman"

well you know what the date and the time is 3:25 is what the time says.

It is a sad day today for men. i have no faith in the existence of the real life superman. My sister has spent nine years caring for a man who did not appriciate her.

i should tell you about my sister. She is lazy, she doesn't like to clea, and like me she is over weight. i could have never asked to for a more perfect human being in my entire life, because what she lacks in motivation she makes up for with her loving spirit, and she has never pretended to be anything else but her. if you fell in love with her, what you see is what you get.

The man who has treated her so shamefully has known about the way she is , She reguards her friends and family as her highest priority. i don't have a car and neither does she, but when i was stuck in parsipany because a job interview took me way out in the middle of no where, and i had lost all the money i had in the world she was there. she pulled off the biggest trick out her bag and picked me up. ( i cry now just thinking of the lengths she would go to help me and i would do the same)

She gave her heart to a man named Joe, common name with common attributes. He has worked, lived, and he will die in the same city of Orange. She had his child and he thinks she is going to work, take care of a child, clean the house and have food prepared when he gets home. this a new day, even when child care, food, and house keeping was required women weren't working full time! it is stressfull and i find it apauling that a man in this day and age would make that a requirement, but i did tell you he knew about my sister being lazy, so why the hell did he think that was going to change? she was taking care of child care and mangeing to work some with no help from his family or money. but the cleaning part was never going to happen. i lived with my sister for 25 years and if she doesn't want to she wont and that is what i know, we had to work out a aystem .

the superman does not exist, because most men are unable to that. my fathter wwas the best man i ever knew but he left us in the care of my crazy grand mother while he tried to put food on the table and live a comfortable lifestyle. that is what i know. i hope one day a man proves me wrong.

until then
there is the supermaz

a hero getts frustrated

to day started off badly, mainly because well, it is rainy out side that really set things in a bad direction. after that my back just deleting accounts, and my phone is still not cut back on , because of some non-discrepensy (sp) i hate it when technology gets in th way of life.

how can a new age super hero save people whn you have to save them from them selves because we all have inflicted this upon ourselves. we ask and we beg and then we are inconvenced. it's my theory. it could be undeniably true.

hero in flight

5-27-2009
very cloudy out side.

i was flying to work on my precious NJ transit. it was a laxidazical flight of fancy. as i made my way over here to the elementry school. i was lost in thought as usual. i would call it day dreaming like i have done since first grade.

i remember in first grade, it would be in the middle of a test. i would embark on diffrent worlds. at the time i would think about my greatest love; Gabriel. i was in love at the time. he didnt like me but i held on stead fast to the dream that we would one day get together. he was a little hispanic boy with bright blue eyes. i thought his family was nice and his mother always picked him up on time (something my family never did). i just hought it would be better to be in his family then mine. Even as much as i loved my family, they always left me an dmy sister in wierd places by ourselves.

When we would say things to people we would always get in trouble because we were never aloud to discuss about our family affairs. it was an unspoken promise when you were born in this enviornment.

i hope i never leaave my children any place i hope to be a wonderful inspiration when the time comes.

Any way i am here at school and i have to get ready for Obama night. yes,a dedication to obama. it is boarderline idol worship. some one looked at me like i was crazy when i said it out loud. but what do you call it when you have gatherings in his name!! the inogeration was a pivital point in american history but everything after is just circumstance. his failures and accomplishments will be noted in the annals of history, lets just see what he will do because he may fuck it up and have us attacked and i bet we wont have these celibrator parties again, lol. i vited for him and i am glad my canidate won, but i not celebrating anymore, lets see what the man will do.

lets hope north korea does not get s first.

the first day i found out i was a superhero

5-26-2009
2:32 pm

The sky is particularly dark out there is the faint teasing of rain in the forcast. i awoke this morning at 4 o clock in the morning. i counldn't get to sleep. i think because i spent the past two days laying in bed from depression. i had found out the day before that my ex-boyfriend (who i am currently sleeping with) is seeing other people. i know the casual on looker will think if me as selfish but i really had not entend on breaking up with him. it was for the greater good.

i had spent the last year playing wide, and i saying playing because i have no husband. i thought that the beautiful andre would prove himself worthy to be given that title. i was wrong, that fact is he and i werent ready to persue something that serious. ( i meaning having moved in with each other cooking, and the fincial dependents we all need) because he just got out of the military and the discovery of his exitisting feeling he had for his previous girlfriend i decided it was time to end the living together, but because i was asking him to move out there was no way to ask him weather we could stay together.

with that information behind me i can tell you about the sudden attack of depression i have gone through. he confessed to me that he is seeing some one else. i just dont understand the need to string me along. i still have feelings for him and he knows this. so why must we go though this game. lets fling it out but let us be safe.

So ... waking up this morning at 4 only made me smoke a stog and drift back to sleep. and then i drempt of flying and i saved two little girls from the harshness of this world. i saw them cowering in a corner surrounded by older and no so wise people. and i swooped in like a hawk and saved them ...