to day started off badly, mainly because well, it is rainy out side that really set things in a bad direction. after that my back just deleting accounts, and my phone is still not cut back on , because of some non-discrepensy (sp) i hate it when technology gets in th way of life.
how can a new age super hero save people whn you have to save them from them selves because we all have inflicted this upon ourselves. we ask and we beg and then we are inconvenced. it's my theory. it could be undeniably true.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
hero in flight
5-27-2009
very cloudy out side.
i was flying to work on my precious NJ transit. it was a laxidazical flight of fancy. as i made my way over here to the elementry school. i was lost in thought as usual. i would call it day dreaming like i have done since first grade.
i remember in first grade, it would be in the middle of a test. i would embark on diffrent worlds. at the time i would think about my greatest love; Gabriel. i was in love at the time. he didnt like me but i held on stead fast to the dream that we would one day get together. he was a little hispanic boy with bright blue eyes. i thought his family was nice and his mother always picked him up on time (something my family never did). i just hought it would be better to be in his family then mine. Even as much as i loved my family, they always left me an dmy sister in wierd places by ourselves.
When we would say things to people we would always get in trouble because we were never aloud to discuss about our family affairs. it was an unspoken promise when you were born in this enviornment.
i hope i never leaave my children any place i hope to be a wonderful inspiration when the time comes.
Any way i am here at school and i have to get ready for Obama night. yes,a dedication to obama. it is boarderline idol worship. some one looked at me like i was crazy when i said it out loud. but what do you call it when you have gatherings in his name!! the inogeration was a pivital point in american history but everything after is just circumstance. his failures and accomplishments will be noted in the annals of history, lets just see what he will do because he may fuck it up and have us attacked and i bet we wont have these celibrator parties again, lol. i vited for him and i am glad my canidate won, but i not celebrating anymore, lets see what the man will do.
lets hope north korea does not get s first.
very cloudy out side.
i was flying to work on my precious NJ transit. it was a laxidazical flight of fancy. as i made my way over here to the elementry school. i was lost in thought as usual. i would call it day dreaming like i have done since first grade.
i remember in first grade, it would be in the middle of a test. i would embark on diffrent worlds. at the time i would think about my greatest love; Gabriel. i was in love at the time. he didnt like me but i held on stead fast to the dream that we would one day get together. he was a little hispanic boy with bright blue eyes. i thought his family was nice and his mother always picked him up on time (something my family never did). i just hought it would be better to be in his family then mine. Even as much as i loved my family, they always left me an dmy sister in wierd places by ourselves.
When we would say things to people we would always get in trouble because we were never aloud to discuss about our family affairs. it was an unspoken promise when you were born in this enviornment.
i hope i never leaave my children any place i hope to be a wonderful inspiration when the time comes.
Any way i am here at school and i have to get ready for Obama night. yes,a dedication to obama. it is boarderline idol worship. some one looked at me like i was crazy when i said it out loud. but what do you call it when you have gatherings in his name!! the inogeration was a pivital point in american history but everything after is just circumstance. his failures and accomplishments will be noted in the annals of history, lets just see what he will do because he may fuck it up and have us attacked and i bet we wont have these celibrator parties again, lol. i vited for him and i am glad my canidate won, but i not celebrating anymore, lets see what the man will do.
lets hope north korea does not get s first.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
the first day i found out i was a superhero
5-26-2009
2:32 pm
The sky is particularly dark out there is the faint teasing of rain in the forcast. i awoke this morning at 4 o clock in the morning. i counldn't get to sleep. i think because i spent the past two days laying in bed from depression. i had found out the day before that my ex-boyfriend (who i am currently sleeping with) is seeing other people. i know the casual on looker will think if me as selfish but i really had not entend on breaking up with him. it was for the greater good.
i had spent the last year playing wide, and i saying playing because i have no husband. i thought that the beautiful andre would prove himself worthy to be given that title. i was wrong, that fact is he and i werent ready to persue something that serious. ( i meaning having moved in with each other cooking, and the fincial dependents we all need) because he just got out of the military and the discovery of his exitisting feeling he had for his previous girlfriend i decided it was time to end the living together, but because i was asking him to move out there was no way to ask him weather we could stay together.
with that information behind me i can tell you about the sudden attack of depression i have gone through. he confessed to me that he is seeing some one else. i just dont understand the need to string me along. i still have feelings for him and he knows this. so why must we go though this game. lets fling it out but let us be safe.
So ... waking up this morning at 4 only made me smoke a stog and drift back to sleep. and then i drempt of flying and i saved two little girls from the harshness of this world. i saw them cowering in a corner surrounded by older and no so wise people. and i swooped in like a hawk and saved them ...
2:32 pm
The sky is particularly dark out there is the faint teasing of rain in the forcast. i awoke this morning at 4 o clock in the morning. i counldn't get to sleep. i think because i spent the past two days laying in bed from depression. i had found out the day before that my ex-boyfriend (who i am currently sleeping with) is seeing other people. i know the casual on looker will think if me as selfish but i really had not entend on breaking up with him. it was for the greater good.
i had spent the last year playing wide, and i saying playing because i have no husband. i thought that the beautiful andre would prove himself worthy to be given that title. i was wrong, that fact is he and i werent ready to persue something that serious. ( i meaning having moved in with each other cooking, and the fincial dependents we all need) because he just got out of the military and the discovery of his exitisting feeling he had for his previous girlfriend i decided it was time to end the living together, but because i was asking him to move out there was no way to ask him weather we could stay together.
with that information behind me i can tell you about the sudden attack of depression i have gone through. he confessed to me that he is seeing some one else. i just dont understand the need to string me along. i still have feelings for him and he knows this. so why must we go though this game. lets fling it out but let us be safe.
So ... waking up this morning at 4 only made me smoke a stog and drift back to sleep. and then i drempt of flying and i saved two little girls from the harshness of this world. i saw them cowering in a corner surrounded by older and no so wise people. and i swooped in like a hawk and saved them ...
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