the first day i found out i was a superhero

5-26-2009
2:32 pm

The sky is particularly dark out there is the faint teasing of rain in the forcast. i awoke this morning at 4 o clock in the morning. i counldn't get to sleep. i think because i spent the past two days laying in bed from depression. i had found out the day before that my ex-boyfriend (who i am currently sleeping with) is seeing other people. i know the casual on looker will think if me as selfish but i really had not entend on breaking up with him. it was for the greater good.

i had spent the last year playing wide, and i saying playing because i have no husband. i thought that the beautiful andre would prove himself worthy to be given that title. i was wrong, that fact is he and i werent ready to persue something that serious. ( i meaning having moved in with each other cooking, and the fincial dependents we all need) because he just got out of the military and the discovery of his exitisting feeling he had for his previous girlfriend i decided it was time to end the living together, but because i was asking him to move out there was no way to ask him weather we could stay together.

with that information behind me i can tell you about the sudden attack of depression i have gone through. he confessed to me that he is seeing some one else. i just dont understand the need to string me along. i still have feelings for him and he knows this. so why must we go though this game. lets fling it out but let us be safe.

So ... waking up this morning at 4 only made me smoke a stog and drift back to sleep. and then i drempt of flying and i saved two little girls from the harshness of this world. i saw them cowering in a corner surrounded by older and no so wise people. and i swooped in like a hawk and saved them ...